Friday, August 5, 2011

Much complaining

I have started to write this post so many times in the last day or so and erased thinking that no one wants to listen/read the complaining, but here we go anyway.

I have reached the end of my rope, I'm not sure if it just stress or pms or both (good possibility).  The acupuncturist asked me yesterday if I feel like I'm feeling more relaxed and I said no way and I'm not sure anything will help it, I am a stressed person by nature and I really really wish I weren't (if I could change one thing about myself that is what it would be).  I bought a yoga dvd thinking that might help but haven't had time to even open it yet, isn't that crazy.  AF should show her face in 5-7 days for this whole process to start over again (don't get me wrong I'm glad that I can afford to do it again) and I pray to God that this is the time that it takes and is sticky. DH and I are at each others throats every time we see each other, which truthfully is only 2-3 hours a day if we are lucky (I know most of the time it is my fault).  My whole life just feels off balance (it has pretty much been this way for the last 3 1/2 years) and it is just getting worse. I hate to say this but if nothing happens by the end of this year I feel like we are going to have to stop TTC, which I will probably die from a broken heart.

Sis's bridal shower is next Sunday, I'm excited for it to be here.  It is going to go great, I believe everything is pretty much done for it.


Allison said...

((((((Huge hugs)))))))

Kate said...

Don't feel bad about complaining - you have to get it off your chest sometime and it may as well be here!

I'm sorry things are tough - I wish I had a solution or a way to make it better, but all I know to say is that I'm thinking of you - keep your chin up.