Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Are there two of me?

I feel like there are two of me, the one that I let everyone see then there is the one that only a handful of people know and a lot of time I keep that side to myself (she might slip out on really crazy days).

The one side is a people pleaser and the other side is just a wreck almost all of the time.  Why is it I let myself get this way I am a freaking wreck...I cry on a daily basis because I can not fix things.  DH says it will all work out in the end but it just keeps getting worse and worse.  I want to just leave but I know that problems will just follow.  I am in a serious argument right now with two people on of these people that crazy side slipped out and I told them how I felt (it didn't go so well) the other I'm just avoiding because I don't want to take the chance of the crazy coming out.  I know that a lot of people feel this way, this is the only place that I really can get it out with lots of judgement being passed onto me.  I'm sorry I know I'm just rambling.  Maybe I should just be a person that everyone tells me what to do and I just do it and have no thoughts of my own.

I am STRESSED OUT.  I really hate complaining on this blog because it should be about happy things such as my kids but this is my diary so I can say what I need right?

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Dropping off the face of the Earth?

I didn't really drop off the face of the Earth, I do comment on some posts  but do not have much time to be on blogger.

Let me just say that my kiddos are becoming so fun to play with and interact with.  We do not just sit at home all of the time anymore.  We take wagon rides from sis's house to the ice cream shop, they love to swing, play in their little outside house, etc.  Haylee and Layne are really starting to gang up on me and poor Wyatt.  Hopefully Mr Wyatt will stick with me for a little while before they get him to join forces with them (then I will have not chance at survival).

Haylee had the last official planned surgery (to correct the pda in April) which was successful and she is her sassy little self again.

Now the run down on each of them.
Wyatt FIRST AND FOREMOST he is completely OFF OXYGEN (the tanks were removed from our house at the beginning of May). Wyatt is my laid back guy that will watch Haylee and Layne (until they get close to him then he freaks out a little).  He started rolling over really well to get to what he wants, he acts like he wants to crawl but hates being on his knees. He is on baby food (has a really bad gag) and drinks from a sippy cup.  Has physical therapy twice a week and speech therapy bi-weekly.  Wyatt's favorite toy is anything that makes noise except when his Mickey Mouse Clubhouse is on.  Wyatt is around 20 pounds and 30 inches long.

Haylee is a sassy little thing, that gives you her "silly face" every opportunity she gets. She is crawling all over the place and is trying to climb (she doesn't seem to be interested in walking yet). She eats table food and drinks from a sippy cup. She has physical therapy once a week.  Haylee's favorite toy is the little garden center house thing that we have in the living room.  Haylee is around 21 pounds and 31 inches long.

Layne is my class clown, he has a fake laugh that will make anyone laugh.  He is a crawler and wants to stand all of the time but has not taken his first successful step yet.  He LOVES food and drinks from a sippy cup.  His favorite toy is the cozy coupe, he really does not like when one of the other two is in it.  Layne is almost 25 pounds and 33 inches long.  (Everyone thinks Haylee and Wyatt are twins because Layne is way bigger)

Here are a couple pictures.

Bath night

Me and my kiddos

Layne & daddy in the 77

Wyatt being a silly boy
Haylee bop