Sunday, April 15, 2012

Things I have learned

I have learned a lot in the past couple weeks. Some things I could have gone my entire life without knowing and others I'm glad that I do know now.

First and foremost, I am glad to know that my hubby is proud of me.  We are not big into sentiments but on the way home (from the hospital) a couple days ago he said he was proud of me, I had a really bad day and he thought he needed to tell me.  We are a team and I hope it stays this way for a long time/forever.

That I think I'm a good mom (not the best but good), the NICU is a dark place. My babies have been there for 7 weeks now and I have only seen some of the parents twice or not at all.  One baby is addicted to drugs (it cries all the time) and another didn't have a name for a week then once it had a name the parents gave it up (social workers have to come in and approve anything that has to be done to the baby).  It is a sad place but that is where I get to hold my babies so I am happy about that part of it.

I know who my real friends/family are.  I can not believe some people are so low to talk bad about you behind your back especially when you are depressed about something or are having hard times.

When I watch The Little Couple I know almost everything Dr. Jen is talking about while she is at work.

People are so kind.  Some people that I am acquaintances with are praying for my children and sending us cards. So wonderful.

The March of Dimes is a great charitable organization. One that I do not think gets enough publicity.

Health insurance (or any kind of insurance for that matter) is not there to help you, it is there to give you a headache when you need it the most.

A couple days or a couple ounces is a lot to a preemie.  Things are completely different from week to week even hour to hour.

I'm sure there is more but I can not think of it right now but I can always add to this list later.


Kate said...

Ugh. I'm sorry things are tough - just keep those little ones as close to you as possible. If you need to vent or anything, you have my email address... Prayers for you!

Amy and Robert said...

Happy to see an update, thinking of you and your three miracles so often. Feel free to email, text, or call me ANYTIME you want or need. You are and always will be an AMAZING mother, not good, great, bad, indifferent... but AMAZING. You're strong and beautiful and have a wonderful soul. :)

Joey said...

I can't tell you how many times I've thought about you and your babies. I totally agree about the insurance thing - and that's only from just doing IVF a few times. And by the way, I'm proud of you, too!
The Childless Mom