Monday, April 23, 2012
A few things you are very strongly encouraged to do when your baby(ies) are in the NICU is to breastfeed/pump, visit them (but not all the time because they will sit you down and tell you, you need to take a break) and do kangaroo care. I do all of the above as much as possible, however the pumping thing is kinda not working out for me. I really try not to stress about it but how can I not, I can not supply enough for all three of my babies and guess what I have to figure out who does not get the milk. So I pick the one that is the healthiest, that means Haylee Jo does not get any of it (unless I have some left over then she gets one feeding). I know that my posts are not exactly the happiest lately and I really should be happy I have 3 beautiful babies that I love so much it hurts. But I feel so sad right now. We had a meeting with the doctors today to go over the babies from head to toe. I know that Wyatt is sick but I forget just how sick his lungs are pretty often, well they reminded me today. He is going to be in the NICU for quite awhile after Haylee and Layne are released. The babies are 8 weeks old now and they have 4 weeks until their due date (their tentative release date). The one thing I have always wanted was to be a mom, but I'm only a mom when I'm at the hospital when I leave I am the same person I always was. I'm really sorry that I'm just rambling but I'm typing as things come to me. Well thank you for listening/reading, I feel a little better now. I just want all of you to know that I love your comments and I am here for all of you if you need me.
Posted by browning2222 at 9:02 PM