I feel like there are two of me, the one that I let everyone see then there is the one that only a handful of people know and a lot of time I keep that side to myself (she might slip out on really crazy days).
The one side is a people pleaser and the other side is just a wreck almost all of the time. Why is it I let myself get this way I am a freaking wreck...I cry on a daily basis because I can not fix things. DH says it will all work out in the end but it just keeps getting worse and worse. I want to just leave but I know that problems will just follow. I am in a serious argument right now with two people on of these people that crazy side slipped out and I told them how I felt (it didn't go so well) the other I'm just avoiding because I don't want to take the chance of the crazy coming out. I know that a lot of people feel this way, this is the only place that I really can get it out with lots of judgement being passed onto me. I'm sorry I know I'm just rambling. Maybe I should just be a person that everyone tells me what to do and I just do it and have no thoughts of my own.
I am STRESSED OUT. I really hate complaining on this blog because it should be about happy things such as my kids but this is my diary so I can say what I need right?